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FIC: All the Nice Girls (Andi/Hoynes) 
22nd-Oct-2005 07:13 pm
balance (by elismor)
Title: All the Nice Girls
Rating: arr?
Pairing: John Hoynes/Andi Wyatt (spelling provided by the memegen in keeping with my inability to commit *g*)
Spoilers: Full Disclosure
Disclaimer: I think everybody knows they're not mine.
Notes: Set in the latter days of the first campaign. Many thanks go out to the fabulous docfraiser8.


*

If mistakes came in flavours, he'd be vanilla.

There's no mystery in that sort of man, only hunger that can never be sated and overindulgence in things that come too easily. You've tripped over his sort every step up the ladder.

You've never understood women who make mistakes like him.

He's so obvious.

It's only after he becomes the latest of CJ's mistakes that you look at him twice, haunted by the unvoiced and unwanted knowledge that you and she have been drawn to the same things in a partner before.

You're not supposed to know, but she can tell that you do. Perhaps she believes Toby betrayed her. Really, you just keep a close eye on her.

She could have a better man than Hoynes.

He is handsome, yes, and one time you find your breath vanishes when he stands up and towers over you. It doesn't mean you'd-

But CJ needs to forget herself, to come, to be made to feel beautiful. That's all men like Hoynes are good for. You have Toby for those things. You still have Toby.

You're happy to small-talk with Hoynes. He's good at talking and you listen intently, still curious to learn what those women think is worth the risk; the sin; CJ's crisp despair in the days after.

Handshakes that wander up the wrist. A smile that's nearly as pretty as yours. And a bottomless well of vacant words, easier to hear than Toby's, slithering from his mouth and wrapping themselves around your body until you're pulled close enough to touch.

There's nothing more to it than you suspected. Your skin is scarlet when you step away.

You watch him dance with the pretty black girl who answers Toby's phone these days. Later his hand is on her bottom. You wonder if your husband intends to make a habit of sweeping up Hoynes's leftovers.

You've watched him so closely you can beat the rhythm of his seduction.

He's more discreet than you realised. He shows himself only to accomplices. He can't be indicted for making eye contact. Nobody suspects his nod is more than polite unless they're already thinking about fucking.

Just before the election, just after a round of treatment, he's nodding at you.

Toby is a thousand miles away, on the road as he has been for most of one of the most important years of your life. You used to burn when you were apart, shuffling around in the empty rooms of your half-shared lives.

You're wearing a green that sets your hair ablaze. You look sensational. You feel it. The way Hoynes hisses when you walk in reminds you of the first time Toby found the nerve to buy you a drink.

The ruthless focus of your eyes and the delicate prickling of your blood vessels conspire to keep you from matching his discretion.

He warms you up with two scoops of flattery.

"They say you're going to win by a landslide."

"That's what they said about you a few months ago."

His eyes narrow but the smile holds.

To experience him in action, you'd think unlocking women's legs really only takes a simple combination that only he knows. Thinking of it like that saves you from thinking about why. You can already feel his fingers on the back of your thigh.

It's easier than you expected. Maybe that's what he thinks of you.

It's enjoyable, but it's not as good as the anticipation – as predictable as the come-on, foreplay by numbers. It's the first time you've used a condom in years. He brings you off first, then settles in to enjoy the ride. Toby is clearer in your mind during the hour in bed with John than in the marital bed for a year. After, he helps you zip up your dress. You thank him, and wonder why.

A month later you're not pregnant, again, but you throw up anyway.

Outside the crimson boudoir of idle fantasy, there's no veil to pull over the truths of your life.

It doesn't change the way you see yourself, and CJ, although you realise that she probably did it because she loved your husband and you did it because you don't. Not as you used to.

It can't set fire to the distance between you and Toby, who is a better fuck and a better man than John Hoynes, but who is no more satisfied with his world.

It changes nothing.

That's why it's a mistake.


End.
Comments 
22nd-Oct-2005 07:47 pm (UTC)
God, that's fabulous. I keep trying to pick lines out of it and say 'THIS is my favorite' but I can't, I love it all, and I can see her clearly throughout. And Hoynes, guh. I have this thing about either Andy or Toby cheating, I just can never see it, but you've done it, you've made it believable to me. Nice freaking work, love.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:19 pm (UTC)
YAY. I'm veryvery pleased that it worked for you because I trust you to know about the sense of such things. ;) Thank you big much.
22nd-Oct-2005 08:00 pm (UTC)
Wow, this is incredible. The style of it is amazing, phrases that I've never seen before but come out so right. And I love how clear CJ and Toby were on the edges of it.

And it's hot, just plain hot.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:32 pm (UTC)
Mmm, that's ever so yummy to hear. Thank you, I'm delighted that you like it.
22nd-Oct-2005 08:58 pm (UTC)
You know, I saw 'Andy/Hoynes' and nearly didn't click, because I couldn't imagine it being pulled off in a way I could find palatable, and as you're one of those author's I adore, I just didn't wnat to be disapointed, if that makes any sense. But then I clicked and read anyway.

Yeah, so completely not disapointed.

This is why I love your writing, the way you twist and weave lanugauge into a rich and believable tapestry, the kind with layers of depth not visible until you step closer.

Very nice.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:40 pm (UTC)
Wow, those are certainly comments to treasure. I'm touched. It's ironic: everyone was sceptical about the pairing (and certainly I'd never have dreamed of it without prompting) but as soon as it came up in the meme, this wrote itself. And that hasn't happened for me in at least two years. It's bizarre what sparks you up.

Thanks very much. :)
22nd-Oct-2005 10:32 pm (UTC)
::love::
See? Waffling was unnecessary.
It's fabulous. It truly is.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:40 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

Thanks for everything, love.
23rd-Oct-2005 02:37 am (UTC)
Absolutely stunning. So beautifully written, the poetry in the phrasing, the pacing of the story, all the while relating crystal-clear characterizations. LOVE!

This bit:

To experience him in action, you'd think unlocking women's legs really only takes a simple combination that only he knows. Thinking of it like that saves you from thinking about why.

floors me. In two sentences you've completely nailed both characters. So impressive.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:52 pm (UTC)
Ooh, you are lovely. Thanks so much; I'm very glad you liked it and am suitably warm and fuzzy now. :)
23rd-Oct-2005 05:39 am (UTC)
I didn't think this would work, but you made it. Marvellous.

And particularly adore:

It doesn't change the way you see yourself, and CJ, although you realise that she probably did it because she loved your husband and you did it because you don't. Not as you used to.
23rd-Oct-2005 09:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Glad it worked for you. It so easily could have gone the other way. *g*

I struggled over that bit because I don't really believe CJ slept with Hoynes because of Toby, but it just seemed to fit. Maybe Andi's paranoid. Besides, I suppose the joy of fanfic is that we get to try out various interpretations.
24th-Oct-2005 05:49 am (UTC)
wow. i love this. you did an incredible job with the pairing.

(and soaked_in_stars just told me you claim you can't write andy --- your andy is very lovely and andylike. liar ;p)

24th-Oct-2005 09:31 pm (UTC)
Hee! Claire's a tell-tale. ;) I do struggle with the character (she was never all that developed on the show and yet people still have very fixed ideas about her), so it's very encouraging that she was recognisable here. Thank you. :)
25th-Oct-2005 05:12 am (UTC)
(She is -- but for good things! lol.)
2nd-Nov-2005 08:27 pm (UTC)
Oh this is just exquisitely wonderful....I can't pin my favorite bit because I love it all from the tip of its hair to its pointy-shoed toes. Adorable.
2nd-Nov-2005 09:26 pm (UTC)
SHOES! Or, thank you. So glad you liked. :)
16th-Nov-2005 07:43 am (UTC)
This is fantastic.
21st-Nov-2005 08:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you. It was pretty random and I'm glad it worked for you.
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